| please be home tonight |
[22 Jul 2005|01:22am] |
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okay. only thing making me happy right now is thinking about tuesday. that ryan comes home and that means more of my loves come home. i miss them. so old pictures yeah i think so
( where is your boy tonight )
okay if these people dont get home soon im going to be upset
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| no expectations*no regrets --- yeah right |
[19 Jul 2005|01:03am] |
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im sick of this shit
i hate how we act like we are two and how both of you act like everything you do and say is okay and i will never get upset
sometimes i fucking hate both of you ... and recently sometimes is becoming all the time
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| you were the good thing about this part of town |
[17 Jul 2005|09:24pm] |
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this week was pretty amazing.
highlight --- hung out with christine. it was more like talked and caught up for 6 hours. it was pretty great though. like you think not seeinng you best friend for almost a year would mena that you wouldnt get along. but shes my other half so of course we are sitll like the same person. hopefully she can come to the cape with me. because holy crap that will be amazing
soo things were actually good. summer was starting to be pretty good. and thenn i started to think about it. abc is no longer a thing. like woow i thought things would be okay if we like gave it a little. but there like a huge split. a + b vs. the two c's. its wierd and i hate it. but i dont know what to do
annnd
no more kara, karah melissa. like this summer is so fucking up
and the worst is no water fights or football. like what is happening.
i want a better summer
okay im done complaining.
cape cod in a week for a couple days
AND
backstage passes to the allman brothers concert. and like amazing seats
leave lots of comments. i need themm like woahh
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| it would hurt to much to watch you die |
[11 Jul 2005|09:29pm] |
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this weekend was super amazing.
double sleepover with sarah again
saturday night dinner was on sunday... black and white dinner. pretty amazing. i love emma, sarah and chase.
today sarah, chase and i saw batman. which was actually good. then mike came over for a little. i like this whole new set up. its going to be pretty awesome
im finallly seeing christine soon. and i might pee in my pants im so excited. not seeing my best friend--my other half all year was killing me
talking about best friends... dan is back from paris and i miss him A LOT too.
and well pat leaves next week. college is over rated
( but i just cant walk away )
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| isnt that what they'll say |
[04 Jul 2005|08:09pm] |
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this weekend was super amazing. i spend it at sarahs .. saturday when i got there chase was there which was cool. and we made him stay like 2 extra hours but its okay. this weekend was like lots of fireworks, i <3 huckabees which has to be my new favorite movie, emma, making breakfast for justin, swimming, i dunno a lot of super cool stuff. its true i love sarah
so i miss last summer and this afternoon made me realize it. like i miss everyday hangi ng out with kara and melissa. i cant remember the last time the 3 of us were togehter. and like lots of water fights with my 6 loves, and like camp. this doesnt feel like summer because im not going. i just miss everything. this summer compared to the last summer is a bummer
so my family is going to look at colleges next week with my brother. and they think its a good idea for me to go with them. i dont understand when i grew up. like my brothers a senior? i dont understand
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| just hold me close to you |
[27 Jun 2005|10:25pm] |
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this weekend wasnt exactly what i thought it would be. ABC was really upsetting. I love and miss charlotte so much though. the night started off good, but it ended up ruining a huge part of my summer plus im not alloowed to see my two best friends anymore. I love char though!!
other than that this weekend was arah2 weeked. so it was sarah and i + a whole bunch of cool people throughout the weekend.
New addition to the summer .. saturday night dinners. Emma, Sarah, Chase and Me are making dinner and having a theme and spending saturday well most saturday nights together. this weekends theme was gold and well matching pimp rings are pretty amazing.
this week should be good for the most part. Pats last week which is a huge bummer but im trying to convince my parents to let me go visit him. why i ask now i have no idea because its probally not happening now but hopefully
leave lots of comments. i missed them
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[23 Jun 2005|10:06pm] |
so im back from the cape. and i miss it soo mcuh. it was excatly what i needed a couple days away from stupid drama, lots of shopping + a whole lot of pat. i didnt get tan though and i spend all of tuesday at the beach with pat so im a little upset about that
tomorrow should be the best day of summmer. ABC like holy crap im so excited to see the 3 girls i love the most. plusss lavander so yeah im excited.
so im venting. this whole situation. i thought was all better like no more drama. yeah i think im wrong. i mena im not positive but it just seems like it.yupp the end.
I MISSS SARAH AND CHRISTINE. like i miss my best friends
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| believe me if you could |
[20 Jun 2005|12:17am] |
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this week started to be better. saw leslie yesterday and well that makes my week no matter how awful it can be. haha im not a dork. yeah anyways so that was excited. she got married today so i babysat for the best man's daughter last night and tonight .. sweetest little girl but i think ive watched alice and wonderland, mary poppins and shrek way to much.
i decided aganist new mexico. it would ahve been great ot see trey since i havent seen him in 2 years almost :-( but there is just way to much going on right now to leave.
since there is so much going on i need to get away.. out for wh for a couple days. so im going to cape cod tomorrow and ill be back weds afternoon or late morning. not suchh a big deal but it will be good
how many days till friday??
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| painting the town your favorite color |
[14 Jun 2005|11:39pm] |
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schools out. and well hasnt been much of a summer so far. it started off really bad. well this past weekend was good but then i was sick for 3 days and then my whole foot thing happened. so yeah. it better get better.
today was interesting. i woke up and cleaned the inside and outside of my car. it smelled like oranges and i was sick of it. and then i washed it with the cutiee across the street. haha my fav. then i went to wat for a little to help garfield because he asked me to which was wierd being back there. went out to dinner with the awful grandparents that were like "how many kids in your grade at watkinson, ooh well you should have chosen loomis you know the class is mcuh better, better for meeting people." i was going to die right there. then andrew came over and we watched about a billion movies .. im glad he back around.
so these past two weeks for now i guess are pretty bad. i keep thinking about it. i mean everythings different but it seems so similar to before i just i need to get away i think. i need to get my mind off of it.
((I MIGHT GO TO NEW MEXICO??? TREY AND I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT ME GOING... SO I ASKED... AND OF COURSE MY MOM WAS LIKE TREY YEAH SURE WHATEVER GO IF YOU WANT!! AHH!! IM JUST GOING TO SHOW UP AT HIS HOUSE ONE DAY AND ITS GOING TO BE GREAT BECAUSE IM MOVING TO THAT BAR IN MESA NEW MEXICO WHEN IM OLDER!))
so this is a long entry but yeah it was needed. so im going to stop posting a lot i think. well kinda. im going to still but nothing big. because allyson is making me get another journal and just venting everything.. so yah i already got a new one and im just posting everything and only giving it to people that ask and i can trust i guess is the deal??
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| here we go again |
[09 Jun 2005|10:08pm] |
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this week was good. finals are over. schools practically over. like wow. half a day and then im a junior. high school is going by way to fast for me.
two things to look at: Mer's livejournal. really awufl picture of me. so i dont know why im posting it but yeahh and neww pictures are up on my webshots.
today was pretty good. last finals. then went to btoh sets of grandparents with michael. mimi and poppy actually for the first time told me that they were proud of me. but then went on to talking baout loomis and how amazing it is and how i fail at life for not choosing loomis. but they still gave me a compliment. other grandparents was fine. then went to chooki and hung out with ryan and him. went out to dinner for mjs birthday and yeah. yeah hes now 17 and a senior im going depressed.
tomorrow should be interesting..
okay so i expect lots of comments back.. and honest ones even if they are annoynous. how does the yearbook look. i feel like no one is telling me the truth and i want to know. so someone please telll me and by someone i mean ALOT of people
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| this is the part |
[30 May 2005|10:45pm] |
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this weekend has had some good and bad parts. friday i went to the hall conard lacrosse games. and then spend the night at the grandparents of course. saturday i hung out with melissa and then hung out with ryan, dan (who is amazingly beautiful i must add.. even though he looks like a hanson), katie, elyse, and chooki. dan and chook won $5 for raping me on the way to meet lyse. we just played football. strip football of course since all we ever do is strip since were whores. sunday hung out with sarah. went to the center and we met up with sam. had a picinic with sam and then bought gummie bears and a camera. it was pretty great. today went to tumblebrook for lunch with linds and just hung out for a little.
so i really miss christine. this not seeing my best friend thing is going to have to stop right now.
anyways. so i got a new screen name. well ive had it for awhile but ive decided to use it.. KES1520. yup much better.
so im so tiredd but im waiting for midnight to call ben and wish him a happy birthday. i like how we still do this and we're not dating anymore. we're funny
leave lots <33
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| i can bend and not break |
[22 May 2005|11:42pm] |
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this weekend was good for the most parts. friday after school was pretty amazing i as usually made stupid statements like how many quarters are there, what is contagous and well i sliped on my softball bag and practically fell down the fill during the lacrosse game. but it was pretty great. + i saw allie which always make everything better because i miss her a lot yesterday was pretty great too.
hung out with the hotties. we ordered pizza only took like 3 hours to get to my house and it ended up being the worst pizza ever. i wish it hadnt been gross out though because i could have used some center with them this weekend ooh well maybe weds? but after how the last couple months have been with mac and kmr it was good to hang out all 3 of us again upp thats we're back together!!
nervous like no other to see the yearbook this week. like if its awful ive wasted a whole year of my life and well i keep thinking about how weds wont be as fun as last year. i really miss last year yearbook that was good
this is my goal .. like honestly my family has given up to me wanting to end up there. exit 6 <3 i
im i need for a new screenname. so sick of cutiek so leave me lots of ideas because i really cant think of one
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| your so beautiful when you convince yourself |
[15 May 2005|11:01pm] |
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i feel like ive been complaing here a lot. :/
this week kinda sucks though. i mean it had some really bad days and then some good ones. i was expecting this week to suck though so i guess it wasnt such a let down
this week should be pretty good im hoping .. well if everyting works out im going to cape cod this weekend. i just need to get the fuck out this town. like i stay in wh for like 4 weeks and i then i feel so shitty. so mommy and me might just go spend the weekend at the house and get away which will be super amazing
so im not sure if im excited for school to end or not but ive been thinking about it alot. i mean im excited for summer but its just going to be wierd no CJ for the first time in 6 years but 4-H with sarah should be cool. but i just dont want this summer to be like last summer. i mean i liked last summer at the time i guess. but looking back at it. it sucked a lot and i regret most of the summer except for i mean like CJ. I mean even cape cod last summer was awful worst cape cod memories yet. well except for drive in ones from last summer those were pretty great
so yeah. spend the weekend with AZ mostly. hes makes things better im glad hes back around
*ooh and yeah ive become close with liti again. and i absolutely love this. like makes me not miss 8th grade year as much. and well i missed liti a lot.
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| make everything wonderful again |
[08 May 2005|12:35am] |
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havent felt like doing much updating recently.
softball has been such a bummer and has put me in bad moods. i mean i love it wiht mel and juls. made us close again which is beyond amazing. like i <3 my big sisters. but i cant stand losing its not the losing its the fact that the team doenst care and then the shit we get. if we dont win on monday im not playing next year. the end
exibitions are over which is happy
yeah. so i thought i was happy this year at watkinson but the last 2 days maybe i really want to go back and go to hall. i mean i have those random days but its been awful recently. its just ive changed so mcuh and as less bitchy as a person i am i miss everything. i mean everyone has changed and everything has changed and i just want to go back.
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| and why we cant accept it |
[28 Apr 2005|10:32pm] |
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this week has been insane. and not in the good way im glad its almost over.
softball makes me very happy. i missed hanging out with Mel and Juls and wow do i love them. im excited for the game tomorroww
so i feel like a dork for being excited for this weekend but i am. Ill probally be at the center a lot which will be good. but its more of like my grandparents make me so less worried about everything and thats right i need right now. im glad there coming home
i have really old music stuck in my head reminds me of when sarah came to stay at my house
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| its a comic book crush |
[18 Apr 2005|10:05pm] |
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holy bejesus im finally updating again. its been forever and a half i think ive just been to bummed out to do anything
*so i was planning on updating last week and then i found out dan went to the hospital and i was to worried to do anything. but i went to visit him on saturday with matt so im a little bit less worried but im still really worried about him. even though i know hes going to be fine.. yah i hope he comes home soon because im sick of being a worried person
*melissa and kara and i are ok now. which i never hough i would see happening again
*mer came to school with me today. most amazing day ever. i absolutely love her. she made me really happy except for the fact that i got really fat last night on all that ice cream. but we watch holes which is officially my new favorite movie.
*i miss christine so much its like killing me not to see my OH i need to see her real soon
*warren has been my favorite recently. i dunno been a lot easier to talk to him recently about stuff then anyone else or even just to hang out with him and have him not even realize that its cheering me up. but somehow that related people to think that were dating ?? weird when did being friends turn into dating ??
ok i think im done .. i gonna start updating more again
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| wont you hold me now |
[30 Mar 2005|07:46pm] |
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vacations over .. and its back to school. this week hasnt been one of the greatest, i dunno maybe its just some of the stuff thats happened but whatever this weekend is going to be amazing so i dont really care how bad this week is.
softball started which is a good thing. and well were nto gonna suck as muhc as last year so dont even ask. its actually really great. i loove hang out with Juls and Mel. the last couple days ive made some pretty stupid comments like 7, 7 and 4 is 21. and i want sucky balls. but its been great. i really have missed hanging out with that group this year and well im going to start a lot more because i love them soo much.
friday im going to coffeehouse with mereidth its already going to be amazing because i get to just see mer and i barely ever see ehr and i miss her like crazy. but warren is also going so tis going to be extra great.
semi is next weekend. im proablly not going. well at this point im not but ill see how things work out.
i miss t2 a lot. i wish we were going to PA soon
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| the best is yet to come undone |
[25 Mar 2005|08:04pm] |
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cape cod was amazing. soo good to finally go back and get away
well the streeet was gross i cant believe all the new neighbors i really i dont like it but whateverr. but ti was great lots of shopping and hanging wiht the loves.
this weeekend should be exciting sunday im going to church for the first time and spending easter with katie. so that should be fun
i have to say i have such a fucked up family. like holy crap i still cant get over this. uoganjgquiobg i cant decide weather i shoukld be happy or be a little be wierd abtou this. right now its leaning towards the being wierded out by it.
i havent sleep in oohh a week i think its time to go to bed
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| life just leaves you blue |
[21 Mar 2005|11:15pm] |
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im just gonna write more tomorrow because i havent slept in 4 days and i wont be sleeping weds or thursday
DC was pretty great for the most part but ill write more about it later
today we blew off going to GW because my brother already decided he didnt want togo there no way and just left earlier for home. drove through the udel campus so he could check it out but we didnt have time to stop and visit jen but whatever. we got the puppy stopped at my cousins and got home after being in the car for ooh 8 hours.
umm so we get the puppy and hes fine not car sick or anything. then my brother has him and im listening to music looking out the window and i turned and he had gotten car sick all over my brother and michael like the idiot he is.. has no idea. yah that was no goood.
2 days till cape cod i am soooooo excited <3
ill add details about DC when im actually awake
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